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Paasuram #6: The call of the Conch

Stanza #6: The Call of the Conch

The transition from the fifth to the sixth day of Margaá¸ģi marked a profound shift in the spiritual architecture of their journey. While the previous days had been an inward pilgrimage—a scouring of the soul’s hidden corners and the incineration of personal karma, the sixth dawn brought with it an expansive, communal calling. The internal sun that had risen within Kodai, Neela, and Dharini was no longer a private lantern to be shielded; it had become a beacon that demanded to be shared. As the velvet blackness of the night dissolved into a fragile tapestry of rose, pearl, and pale sapphire, the air in Srivilliputtur felt charged with a new, kinetic energy. It was the "hour of the Brahman," a time when the veil between the mundane and the celestial is thinnest, yet most of the village remained wrapped in the heavy, tamasic blankets of sleep.

Kodai stood before her companions on the sanctified threshold of her father’s house, her silhouette etched against the brightening horizon. There was a new, unmistakable timbre in her voice—a resonance of leadership that seemed to draw its authority from the very earth itself. Her eyes, usually soft with the tenderness of devotion, now flashed with the fire of a divine mission. The green parakeet on her shoulder shifted its weight, ruffling its emerald feathers with a sharp, alert precision that mirrored Kodai’s own readiness to engage with the world.

"The time for solitary devotion is past," Kodai declared, and her words seemed to ripple through the morning mist like a stone dropped into a still pond. "Until now, we have cultivated the gardens of our own hearts, ensuring our own lamps were trimmed and burning bright. But the Lord we seek is not a hermit of the caves; He is the Maayan, the Master of the Play, who delights in the symphony of a thousand voices rising as one. He does not desire a lonely flame in the dark; He yearns for a galaxy of lights, a constellation of souls moving in unison toward His feet."

She turned her gaze toward the cluster of sleeping huts that formed the cowherd colony. "Today, we begin the great awakening, the Uttishta. We shall not walk the path to the Infinite alone, for the Lord’s grace multiplies when it is reflected in the eyes of a sister. We shall go from door to door, rousing those who are still caught in the illusions of the pillow. If we are to reach the Lord of the Eagle-Banner, we must do so as a tide, not as a trickle. The path to the Infinite is a journey best walked hand-in-hand, where the strength of one sustains the faltering step of another."

Neela and Dharini, their spirits still vibrating from the celestial encounter at the river, followed Kodai with an eagerness that bordered on the ecstatic. The "music of the Creator", that low, humming frequency of the Pranava, had not left them; it lived within their marrow, making every step feel like a rhythmic pulse upon the earth. To their eyes, the world no longer looked ordinary. The rain-washed trees seemed to be dripping with liquid emeralds, and the very air shimmered with a heightened, surreal reality, as if the physical village of Srivilliputtur were merely a thin veil over a radiant, eternal Gokulam. They realized now that their personal purification was not the finish line, but merely the clearing of the vessel. The nectar of grace was too vast for one soul to contain; it demanded a communal overflow.

Their destination was the modest, impeccably kept hut of Lakshmi. Among the cowherd girls, Lakshmi was a figure of quiet, luminous mystery. She was the embodiment of Prathama Parva Nishtai, the soul’s first, deep anchoring in the sweetness of God, where the devotee is so intoxicated by the internal presence of the Lord that the external world, even the company of other devotees, feels like an unnecessary distraction. Lakshmi was often seen in her garden, her fingers moving with a prayerful tenderness as she tended her jasmines. Her face usually wore a look of serene, self-contained joy, a "private Vaikuntha" she carried behind her closed eyelids. To her, the Lord was a secret treasure hidden in the heart’s cave, a solitary bliss she was content to savor in the hushed chambers of her own being. She was a novice to the roaring tide of Krishnanubhavam—the collective, ecstatic experience that Kodai embodied.

Kodai looked at the closed door of the hut with a mother’s discerning gaze. She knew that Lakshmi’s spirit was like a delicate bud that would wither under a harsh command; she required the warmth of a spiritual morning to coax her into full bloom. As the trio reached the threshold, the environment began to stir with an almost sentient awareness. The atmosphere, rendered crystalline by the previous day’s "arrow-rain," felt electric. The sounds of the awakening world, the first rustle of palm fronds, the distant lowing of a calf, carried an unusual clarity, sounding like notes in a cosmic symphony. The air was a cool, bracing tonic, carrying the scent of wet earth and the faint, haunting aroma of distant incense.

"She is at the threshold of the Great Secret," Kodai whispered to Neela and Dharini, her voice low and rich with intent. "But she rests in the peace of the drop, unaware of the power of the ocean. We are here to show her that the Lord is not just a guest in her heart, but the Master of the entire morning."

Kodai stood before the silent door, her voice rising like a silver thread through the indigo mist of dawn. "Did you not hear it, Lakshmi?" she called out, her tone possessing a melodic, haunting quality that bypassed the ears and aimed straight for the sleeping soul. It was a gentle invitation, yet it carried the weight of a divine summons. "Did you not hear the alternate twittering of the myriad birds, those winged heralds of the Dawn, making such loud, insistent noises? Even the smallest of creatures has understood that the King is awake!"


Andal and her friends at Lakshmi's house
[Image sourced from Gemini AI]



As if on cue, the natural world erupted in a surreal, polyphonic symphony. From the sprawling, ancient banyan trees, whose roots hung like the matted locks of ascetics, and from every golden-thatched eave, a cacophony of chirps, rhythmic coos, and sharp whistles began to weave together. The tiny sparrows, their wings shimmering with the remnants of celestial moisture, argued over the diamond-like dew drops with an intensity that seemed almost liturgical. In the distant, emerald-shadowed groves, the peacocks let out their piercing, regal cries, their fans unfurling like the many-eyed curtains of heaven. Even the crows, usually mundane in their calls, seemed to be chanting ancient, ritualistic greetings to the first hint of the solar deity. It was an undeniable, vibrant chorus of life that pulsed with the heartbeat of the Prakriti herself.

"And beyond the feathered messengers, Lakshmi," Neela added, her voice a soft, reverberating counterpoint that seemed to ripple through the morning air, "did you not hear the deep, resonant sound of the white conch? The sacred spiral is exhaling its breath from the temple of the King of Garuda!"

From the majestic, silhouetted gopuram of the Srivilliputtur temple, a sound began to swell that eclipsed all others. It was a long, mournful, yet profoundly auspicious vibration, the roar of the Panchajanya conch. This was no ordinary sound; it was a spiritual gravity, a sonic manifestation of the Lord’s own authority. It did not merely travel through the air; it sliced through the lingering veils of the night with a divine proclamation that caused the very marrow in their bones to hum in sympathetic resonance. This was the call of the "King of Birds," Garuda, signaling the start of the cosmic day. It was an ancient, echoing summons that had reverberated through the post-Mahabharata landscape for millennia, reminding every heart that the Lord of the Universe had opened His eyes, and the world must rise to meet His gaze.

Kodai took a step closer to the tightly barred door of Lakshmi’s hut, her shadow merging with the intricate kolam patterns drawn on the threshold. Her voice was now imbued with a gentle, shimmering urgency that felt like the first warm rays of sun hitting a frozen petal. "Oh, little girl, please wake up!" she pleaded, her eyes fixed on the wood as if she could see the soul resting behind it. "Do not cling to the sweet, silken dreams of your bed. Those dreams are but pale reflections, ghosts of a joy that is currently manifesting in its full glory just outside your door. The world is not just awake, Lakshmi—it is pulse-quickeningly alive with His presence!"


The Holy Sounds of "Hari, Hari"

Kodai paused for a heartbeat, allowing the fading reverberation of the temple conch and the frantic, joyous symphony of the birds to settle into Lakshmi’s consciousness. The silence that followed was not empty; it was a pregnant, expectant hush.

"And listen, Lakshmi," Kodai continued, her voice dropping to a softer, more persuasive register that hummed with a subtle, electric power. "Beyond the birds, beyond the wind, can you not hear the most sacred of vibrations? Can you not hear the holy, rhythmic sounds of 'Hari, Hari'?"

From the stone-flagged inner courtyards of the great temple, and drifting down like a cool mist from the secluded cave-hermitages nestled in the nearby hills, a faint but inexorable chorus of voices began to rise. These were the voices of the Munis and Yogis—the ancient savants who had conquered sleep and transcended the vagaries of the flesh. They had already completed their arduous, night-long meditations, their bodies as still as statues while their spirits traveled the celestial realms.

Their chants of "Hari, Hari" were not the loud, aggressive pronouncements of men seeking to be heard by the world. Instead, they were deep, internal utterances—a sonorous vibration that seemed to arise from the very navel of the earth. It was a sound resonating with a profound, aching love and a total, crystalline surrender. To Neela and Dharini, standing behind Kodai, the sound felt like a physical substance—a river of honeyed light flowing through the gray pre-dawn. It was the sound of souls utterly saturated with the divine, a collective exhale of the universe that carried the very essence of Ananda (bliss). Every "Hari" was a spark that caught in the cool air, a sound that did not just name the Lord, but made Him present in the space between the heartbeats of the village.

"They are calling Him, Lakshmi," Dharini added, her voice dropping into a register of profound reverence that made the air feel heavy with the scent of ancient myths. She stepped closer to the eaves of the hut, her eyes wide as she visualized the paradoxes of the Divine. "They are calling the One who, as a babe no larger than a lotus bud, drank the dark, poisonous milk from the breast of the demonic ghost Putana. Think of it, Lakshmi! He did not merely survive her malice; He transformed it. He stole her life-breath even as she sought to contaminate His, proving that even the deadliest venom is but a drop of sweetness when it touches the lips of the Infinite. They are calling the Child of Wonders who, with a playful, effortless kick of His tiny, rose-hued foot, dismembered the ogre of the cart, Shakata. In one casual stroke of divine play, He shattered the heavy wood and iron of deception, reducing the weight of that dark ego to mere dust scattered in the wind."

Neela watched as the light of the morning seemed to catch in Dharini’s hair, creating a halo of gold. "And they call Him," Dharini continued, her voice rising in a crescendo of awe, "the Supreme Lord, the Narayana, who reclines in a state of Yoga-Nidra upon the thousand-headed emerald throne of the great serpent Adi Sesha. There, in the heart of the Milky Ocean, He exists in a cosmic sleep that is more wakeful than our loudest day, dreaming the entirety of the universe, the stars, the rivers, and even the beat of our hearts, into precarious existence."

Kodai stepped fully up to the threshold, her palm resting gently against the rough-hewn wood of Lakshmi’s door as if she were touching the girl’s very spirit. Her voice became a melodic, rhythmic whisper, a mantra that seemed to vibrate through the grain of the timber and permeate the interior darkness. "These sages, Lakshmi—the Munis who have stilled their senses and the Yogis who have mastered their breath, they meditate upon such a multi-faceted Lord. They rise in the pre-dawn stillness, their hearts already overflowing like silver chalices under a waterfall. They do not need to shout, for they do not wish to disturb the Lord who resides eternally and tenderly within the secret chamber of their own consciousness."

She leaned her forehead against the door, her eyes closing in bliss. "And as they rise, Lakshmi, that pure, resonant, and colossal sound of 'Hari, Hari' that escapes their lips is not just a name—it is a celestial current. It flows through the mists of Srivilliputtur, enters our ears, and sinks deep into our hearts. It cools the fever of our minds, washing away the grit of confusion and the stinging salt of sorrow. It is the only true medicine, the soothing, transcendental balm that heals the soul’s ancient wounds. Can you truly stay asleep while the world is being bathed in such nectar?"

Inside the cool, dim sanctuary of her hut, Lakshmi stirred beneath her hand-woven coverlet, her breath hitching as the external world began to press against the borders of her consciousness. She had been drifting in the amber glow of a sweet, languid dream, a state of Prathama Parva Nishtai so profound that she felt she was cradling the Lord’s lotus feet in the private garden of her own soul. To Lakshmi, this communion felt complete, a flawless pearl of devotion that required no outside light. She loved the Lord with a fierce, quiet intensity, yet her bhakti was a cloistered sanctuary, a hidden well from which she drank alone. The mere thought of rousing herself, of stepping out into the bracing morning air for a boisterous, communal gathering, felt jarring, almost disruptive to the delicate tapestry of her internal peace. Why, she wondered in her half-sleep, should she trade this silent, crystalline path for the "chaotic" exuberance of a crowd?

Yet, the universe seemed to conspire against her solitude. The insistent, melodic calls of Kodai were not merely sounds, they were silver needles of intent, stitching the reality of the morning into her dreaming mind. They merged with the distant, thunderous vibration of the temple conch and the manic, joyous symphony of the myriad birds, beginning to chip away at the walls of her self-imposed fortress. The words of the paasuram began to weave themselves into the fabric of her waking thoughts. Each epithet, Putana-Samhara, the destroyer of the child-thief; Shakata-Bhanga, the breaker of the deceptive cart, Adi Sesha Shayana, the one who dreams the worlds into being, struck a deep, resonant chord within her heart. These were not just historical feats; they were cosmic pulses that reminded her that the Lord’s play was universal, vast, and inclusive. He was not just the guest in her heart; He was the King of the entire unfolding dawn.

The collective chant of "Hari, Hari" from the distant sages, carried on a breeze that smelled of rain-washed jasmine and sacred ash, finally bridged the gap. It felt like a soft, invisible hand, cool and fragrant, reaching through the thatch and the timber to stroke away the last clinging vestiges of slumber from her brow. It was a call to a larger love, an invitation to realize that the drop of her private bliss was destined to lose itself in the roaring, ecstatic ocean of communal grace. The solitary garden was beautiful, but the forest of Vraja was calling, and for the first time, Lakshmi felt the limitations of being alone with the Infinite.


Lakshmi slowly opened her eyes, finding that the shadows of her room had been replaced by a soft, translucent gold. The first rays of the dawn, filtering through the small, circular window of her hut, did not feel like an intrusion into her private sanctuary; instead, they felt like inviting fingers of light, beckoning her toward a threshold she had previously feared to cross. The voice of Kodai continued to ripple through the air, not as a sharp command of authority, but as a tender, sisterly plea that carried the scent of the Yamuna and the warmth of a thousand rising suns.


“Oh, little girl, wake up!”

A faint, luminous smile finally touched Lakshmi's lips. In that suspended moment between sleep and wakefulness, a profound realization dawned within her, swifter than the sunlight. Perhaps, she mused, the ecstasy of the Lord was never intended to be a treasure locked in a single, private garden. Perhaps the nectar of Krishnanubhavam was like a mountain spring, pure at its source, yet destined by its very nature to become a vast, overflowing river that nourished everything in its path. To keep Him only within her own heart was to limit the Limitless.

With a sudden, decisive movement, she pushed aside her heavy blanket, feeling a surge of "preternatural curiosity" that made her skin tingle. The sound of the temple conch reached out to her once more, no longer a distant noise but a resonant vibration that seemed to align her own heartbeat with the cosmic rhythm. The birds outside were no longer just chirping; they were heralds of a new epoch.

She stood up and walked to the door, her hand trembling slightly as she grasped the heavy wooden bolt. With a sharp, rhythmic clack, the bolt slid back, and the door swung open. The transition was visceral. The cool, rain-washed air of Srivilliputtur rushed in, carrying the electric energy of Kodai’s presence. Lakshmi stepped onto the threshold, her face meeting the first unfiltered light of the sun, which turned her simple pavadai into a garment of shimmering amber.

Kodai, Neela, and Dharini stood there, their eyes shining with a welcoming fire that made Lakshmi’s heart swell. There were no words of reproach for her lateness; there was only the "collective grace" of their shared gaze. As Lakshmi stepped down to join them, her bare feet touching the firm, fragrant earth, she felt the heavy weight of her solitary devotion dissolve into the buoyant, surging tide of the group. The journey from the "me" to the "us", the transition to Charama Parva Nishtai, had officially begun. They were no longer four separate girls; they were a single, unfolding prayer, marching together toward the next house, their voices beginning to hum the Name in a harmony that promised to wake the very stones of the village.


(c) Bharat Bhushan
25 December 2025

my grandmother, a strange little boy and the tea shop on the pavement

 “It was the weirdest dream last night,” my grandmother said. “I have never had such a real-like dream, ever.”

I smiled indulgently. She always had a manner of exaggerating stuff and adding nuances and metaphors that would never be required with the matter at hand. I mean, how one could compare one dream to any other, unless they could remember each and every one. I could not even remember any current dream if I woke up suddenly. Sometimes, the dreams were so interesting and exciting, and I could just vaguely remember that they were, and I did want to return to the same dream and to the same moment, but it did not happen. That most intricate moment would always be lost.

“Nanamma, what was the dream about? Do you remember it still? Was it about all of us? Was it about your childhood? Do tell, but please keep at your breakfast. You need to eat up that kanji and oats for your medicines.”

She gestured as if to include the entire hall and dining area in our 2nd floor apartment. “You call this suitable breakfast? Your parents are torturing me by always siding with the doctors and medical whatnot. Give me your aloo paratha and pickles and whatever else that you have on your plate. I am already eighty-five but I am stronger than anyone of you. I have not lost a single tooth and I have never stayed overnight in a hospital for the past many years.”

I loved her a lot and it was always an opportunity to do something that would be an act of disobedience with my parents and that could not be missed up on. I handed over my breakfast to her and brought back some more of the aloo paratha and chole and pickles from the kitchen. I sat nearer to the largish window alongside the balcony so that I could have my breakfast and keep watching the world moving down there, in the streets and on the pavements.

“You know that tea and snacks shop on the pavement below, that you can see from where you are sitting?”

I nodded. I looked down at the footpath and I could see it very vividly. It was at the corner junction and a lane came out from some apartment complexes. The shopkeeper had kept four wooden benches outside, extending his premises and encroaching on the walking area. There were other shops in a line, a haircutting saloon, an electrical equipment repairs shop, a newspaper and fruits vendor and a dry cleaner laundry of sorts followed by a flower vendor.

My grandmother continued, “I dreamt about the tea shop yesterday night. I have never been there ever but I dreamt that I was sitting there, wanting to take a breather from walking back from meeting up with my friend in that larger apartment building. A youngish boy, probably about ten or twelve years old, in a dark peacock blue shirt was sitting alongside, eating a large bun and dipping it in a cup of tea. I remember that clearly. I can remember the sounds too but I was not aware at that moment in my dream. He looked up at me and smiled and he was so very familiar.”

I looked down from my window seat and I could see the people at the pavement benches. There was a boy out there, sitting, having a bun and tea. As I watched, he dipped it in the cup of tea and gulped hastily, wiping himself.

“What was interesting about that, Nanaamma?” I asked. “You must have seen him earlier or from up here.”

“No. It was not that. The boy was very familiar and I could not remember easily. He spoke to me. He called me by a different name. He said, ‘Saramma, how are you doing? It is time. You have to come with us and recover the treasure of the village deity. We have been waiting for you. We need you to return. Your four brothers and sisters are also waiting. I have to hand over the treasure that we had taken away from the temple and hidden it by the river.’ And, I looked at him again, and I knew his name. Just like that. And, I knew what to say to him in my dream. Very strange.”

I turned to look down at the tea shop. The boy was seated there. He had finished having his bun and tea.

“How can that young boy know you from a different name,” I asked. “You had only one brother who is no more.”

“Yes, Yes. I thought about all that,” my grandmother replied. “I asked the boy in my dream, ‘who is Saramma? I am not Saramma.’ And, he replied, I remember so very clearly, he said, ‘You are Saramma. I know you are. Our village deity told me so and sent me here. Unfortunately, after the treasure was hidden, our village was attacked by the enemy and several houses were burnt down and your entire family was killed. It is time. I have met you. You need to return to the village and locate the treasure and return it to the deity and the temple. Only then, will there be peace.’ I remembered it all then, in my dream, of having helped my brothers and sisters carry the treasure from the temple to an old unused well and climbing down and hiding it within. I was the only one who could do it as I was the smallest.”

I was getting worried and jittery. If the entire family was killed, the dream probably referred to some past life matter that must have jumped the many years and could have come up now. I did not believe in all that stuff but my friends had recently shown me some videos about past life regression and workshops and interactive sessions. That was all ok but if it was about past life and it was in my grandmother’s dream, what about that boy? I could see him.

“What happened after, in the dream?” I asked. I did not want to mention that I could see the boy at the tea shop.

“I remember it so well. The dream, I mean. I spoke to the boy, ‘And, you are Pattabhi? You are the son of the temple priest? I recollect you. The families living near the temple knew where we had hidden the treasure. Anyone of them could have helped you recover it even if my entire family was killed. Why do you need my brothers and sisters?’ And, he replied, ‘My father was blamed by the Nayaka and his ministers. They said that my father had probably stolen the treasure and he was now blaming the families who had been killed and could not come forward. Saramma, I need you to return with your brothers and sisters. It is only you who can retrieve the treasure. My father had tied the sacred thread from the deity on your wrists and bound you all to the treasure. Nobody else is allowed to bring it back.’ And, as I looked around, in my dream, I could see them, my two brothers and sister. They were born in different families but they had returned to stand together. They were looking at me and smiling. They were all very elderly and must have lived different lives, away from one another, but they had recognised one another and had recognised me.”

I did not know what to say. I looked down at the tea stall. I could see the boy standing near the wooden bench, looking up at our apartment window. Two elderly men and an elderly woman were standing alongside, looking up.

From "the very short short stories on first edit" 
(c) Bharat Bhushan
20 February 2022 


Once, not very long ago (1) - the tales of Peddodu (Big Man) and Chinnodu (Small Man)

Once, not very long ago, somewhere in Andhra Pradesh, two friends, Peddodu (Big Man) and Chinnodu (Small Man) were sitting at a small roadside tea-shop. It was their way of life, to meet up early in the morning and share a cup of tea and contemplate the mysteries of the universe.
Peddodu was suddenly reminded of an event from his childhood and laughed as he thought back to it. Chinnodu noticed his happiness and mirth and asked about it. Peddodu kept chuckling to himself and could not stop long enough to reply or explain. So Chinnodu asked for another cup of tea to wait it out.
Eventually Peddodu calmed down. He said, "Do you remember, in our childhood, our small village school teacher had taken us to the great temple in the town? I had climbed up the temple door, and before anyone had realised, I had got to the top."
Chinnodu was surprised. He did not remember any such event. So, he asked the inevitable, "No. I do not remember. What happened after you climbed up the temple door?"
Peddodu replied, "Everyone had got angry and they started screaming. I panicked and fell abruptly and landed on the banana seller's cart."
Chinnodu was absolutely surprised. He would have remembered such a drastic event from childhood. He asked again, "Abba abba... Ore Entraa (oye what man...) You must have fallen from a great height. Hope you were not seriously injured or something. I hope you were not killed due to the bad fall!!!"
Peddodu was nonplussed. He just nodded in the mysteriously great Indian manner in the negative and said, "Ledu raa, (No man) it happened long ago in our childhood. I do not remember the exact details. I am not sure if I actually died due to the fall or not. One cannot remember all the details, na."