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The story of Pinaka, the celestial bow of Mahadeva: The Unknown Stories from within the Ramayana

The city of Mithila, the jewel of the Videha Kingdom, was a place where the air itself seemed thick with the scent of sacrificial fires and the rhythmic chanting of the Vedas. Located between the rushing Gandaki to the east and the Mahananda to the west, protected by the looming Himalayas to the north and the sacred Ganga to the south, it was a realm of both strategic power and profound spiritual depth.

This sacred geography was not merely a matter of borders but a reflection of the kingdom’s character. To the north, the snow-capped peaks of the Himalayas stood as silent sentinels, embodying the height of spiritual aspiration that the kings of Videha sought to reach. To the south, the Ganga flowed with a maternal grace, nourishing the fertile plains that made Mithila a land of abundance. The Gandaki and Mahananda rivers acted as the natural veins of the kingdom, ensuring that the land of Siradhvaja Janaka was as prosperous as it was pious.


The lineage of the Janakas was unique in the annals of Bharatavarsha. Descended from the austere King Nimi and the miraculous King Mithi, from whom the city took its name, these rulers were not merely monarchs but Rajarsis (Royal Sages). Siradhvaja, the current Janaka, epitomized this duality. While his younger brother Kushadhvaja managed the defense and administration of Samkasya, Janaka turned Mithila into a global sanctuary for the mind. In the markets and courtyards, one was as likely to hear a debate on the nature of the Atman as one was to hear the haggling of merchants.


The Sanctum of the Pinaka

In the heart of the palace, within a chamber reinforced by stone and sanctified by daily rituals, sat the celestial bow, Pinaka. It rested in an enormous iron chest, a vessel so heavy it required eight wheels to be moved, and several hundred men to pull. This chamber, known as the Pinaka-shala, was unlike any other room in the royal residence. Its walls were etched with the history of the universe, and the floor was made of polished black stone that reflected the constant glow of oil lamps that were never allowed to extinguish.


The protection of the Pinaka was not left to physical guards alone. While the palace was patrolled by the elite of Mithila’s army, the chamber itself was guarded by a layer of spiritual defense. Every morning, before the sun touched the waters of the Ganga, a group of chosen priests would enter the sanctum. They performed an elaborate Shodashopachara Puja (sixteen-step worship) to the bow, treating it not as an object of wood and string, but as a living manifestation of Mahadeva’s power.


The chest itself, the Manjusha, was a marvel of ancient engineering. Forged from tempered iron and adorned with celestial motifs of serpents and fire, it was built to withstand the immense spiritual weight of the weapon within. The eight wheels were massive, each taller than a grown man, and they were kept greased with sacred oils to ensure that if the bow ever needed to be moved for a ceremony or a royal display, the friction would not ignite the very earth. It was said that when the chest was moved, the sound of its wheels was like the rolling of distant thunder, a sound that could be heard across the entire city, signaling to the citizens that the divine protector of Mithila was being stirred.


The Protocols of Presence

The Pinaka was not a public spectacle. It was a divine trust. Consequently, the manner of people allowed to visit it was strictly governed by a hierarchy of merit, purity, and purpose. The primary visitors were the great sages who frequented Janaka’s court. Figures such as the revolutionary Yajnavalkya, the brilliant Gargi Vachaknavi, and the venerable Ashtavakra were granted access to the outer sanctum. For these masters of philosophy, the Pinaka was a subject of deep meditation. They did not come to marvel at its lethality, but to contemplate the Dharma it represented. They were allowed to sit in silence near the iron chest, drawing inspiration from the proximity of a tool that had once aligned with the will of the Creator to destroy the three cities of Tripura. To them, the bow was a symbol of the focused mind.


Other kings and princes from across the various kingdoms of the subcontinent would often travel to Mithila with the specific intent of seeing the Pinaka. However, their access was more restricted. To stand before the iron chest, a visiting king had to first undergo a period of ritual purification. They were required to bathe in the Gandaki and present themselves to Janaka not as a rival sovereign, but as a seeker of grace. Janaka, ever the gracious host, would lead them into the chamber, explaining the history of how the bow passed from the Devas to King Devarata. Many of these kings, fueled by their own vanity, hoped to be the one to string it, but few were even allowed to touch the handle of the chest, let alone the bow itself.


The final category of people allowed within the chamber were the 'Servants of the Pinaka', a hereditary group of palace workers whose sole duty was the maintenance of the chamber and the chest. These men were trained from youth in the physical strength required to manage the massive chest and the spiritual discipline needed to remain in the presence of such a high-vibrational relic. They moved through the room with hushed voices and lowered eyes, viewing their labor as a form of Karma Yoga.


A Legacy of Custodianship

For Siradhvaja Janaka, the bow was a constant reminder of the weight of his own crown. He often visited the chamber late at night, after the scholars had retired and the city had fallen silent. In the presence of the Pinaka, he found a strange clarity. He understood that the prosperity of the Videha Kingdom, the peace that allowed for the chanting of the Vedas to continue undisturbed—rested on the silent strength of this celestial weapon.


The bow was never used in the wars of Mithila. Its presence alone was a deterrent, a silent promise that the gods favored the righteous line of Nimi. It was the anchor of the palace, a piece of the divine realm brought down to earth, waiting for a time when the world would again require the intervention of the Supreme. Until then, it remained in its iron cradle, a secret heart beating within the stone walls of Mithila, guarded by a king who valued the wisdom of the soul as much as the strength of the sword.


The Charioteer of the Three Cities

The sun was setting over the ramparts of Mithila, casting long, amber shadows that danced across the stone corridors of the royal palace. King Janaka, known to his family and the learned circles as Siradhvaja, stood with his younger brother, Kushadhvaja. The air between them was filled with the quiet gravity of shared history.


Kushadhvaja had recently been appointed the ruler of Samkasya after their arduous victory over the defiant Sudhanvan. Yet, despite the triumph of war, both men felt humbled as they stood within the sanctum of the Pinaka-shala.


Before them sat the legendary iron chest, a gargantuan vessel of dark, tempered metal etched with protective mantras in ancient Brahmi. It rested upon eight massive bronze wheels, and it was said that the weight of the chest alone was enough to make the earth groan. Inside lay the Pinaka, the celestial bow of Mahadeva.


"It is a weight that defies the earth, Brother," Kushadhvaja remarked, his voice echoing softly against the vaulted ceiling. He reached out, his fingers hovering just inches from the cold, vibrating iron of the chest. "I have seen many weapons of war in Samkasya—bows that can pierce a mountain and swords forged in the fires of the Gandaki, but this, this feels as though it anchors the palace to the very core of the world. It does not feel like an object; it feels like a presence."

Janaka smiled, his eyes reflecting the flickering ghee lamps that burned eternally in the corners of the chamber. His expression was that of a man who saw not just the wood and metal, but the metaphysical threads connecting the artifact to the heavens.


"You have a warrior's intuition, Kushadhvaja," Janaka replied. "It is not merely wood and string. It is a fragment of the Divine Will, a physical manifestation of Sankalpa, the cosmic resolve. Do you know why Mahadeva is called Tripurantaka? It is a title that marks the end of an era of imbalance."


Kushadhvaja nodded slowly, his gaze fixed on the chest. "I have heard the hymns chanted by the priests, and I have heard the bards sing of the three cities, but those are tales for the masses. I wish to hear the history from you, Brother, from the perspective of a Janaka who guards its legacy."


The Ambition of the Tripura

Janaka turned to face the chest fully, his hands clasped behind his back. "Long ago," he began, his voice dropping into a rhythmic, storytelling cadence, "the three sons of the Asura Taraka, Tarakaksha, Kamalaksha, and Vidyunmali, performed such intense penance that they forced the hand of Lord Brahma. They did not ask for simple immortality, for they knew the laws of the universe forbade it. Instead, they asked for three invincible cities."


"Maya Danava, the great architect of the netherworlds, constructed them," Janaka continued. "One was of gold, situated in the highest heavens; one was of silver, floating in the middle air; and one was of iron, anchored upon the earth. These cities were marvels of celestial engineering, moving independently, shifting through the clouds and the stars. They were unreachable and impregnable. But there was a catch, a flaw designed by Brahma. These three cities, Tripura, could only be destroyed when they aligned in a single, vertical line. This alignment happened only once every thousand years, for the briefest flicker of a moment, and they could only be razed by a single arrow."


The Chariot of the Universe

Janaka’s voice grew hushed, almost surreal, as he described the cosmic scale of the mobilization that followed. "The Asuras grew arrogant, using their mobile fortresses to terrorize the three worlds. The Devas, for all their lightning and thunder, were helpless. They realized that no ordinary weapon, and no ordinary deity, could strike three moving targets in three different dimensions with a single shot. They turned to Mahadeva."


He stepped closer to Kushadhvaja, his eyes wide with the vision of the Puranic past. "But Mahadeva did not simply pick up a bow. To support the weight of his intent, the entire universe had to reconfigure itself into a war machine. The Earth itself became his chariot. The Sun and the Moon were transformed into its two wheels, representing the cycles of time. The four Vedas became the four horses, and the sacred syllable Om became the lash of the whip. Lord Brahma himself, the Creator, took the reins as the charioteer, for only he could navigate the chariot at the speed of thought."


"And the bow?" Kushadhvaja asked, his breath catching.


"The bow was the Pinaka," Janaka whispered. "Mount Meru, the axis of the world, became the frame of the bow. The cosmic serpent, Vasuki, offered himself as the bowstring. And the arrow? The arrow was a fusion of Agni the fire-god as the tip, Soma the moon-god as the fletching, and Vishnu himself as the shaft."


The Moment of Alignment

"When the thousand years reached their zenith," Janaka said, his voice rising with intensity, "the three cities began to drift toward each other over the plains of the sky. The Devas watched in silence. The moment the gold, silver, and iron fortresses overlapped, forming a single needle-thin target, Mahadeva drew the Pinaka. He did not need a thousand arrows, he did not need a volley of celestial bolts. He needed only one, charged with the concentrated power of the entire universe's consciousness."


"In a single flash of blinding, white fire, the Tripura were reduced to ashes. The arrogance of the Asuras vanished in a heartbeat. What you see before you, Kushadhvaja, is the instrument that restored balance to the three worlds. It is the very bow that held Mount Meru's strength and Vasuki's tension."


Kushadhvaja looked at the iron chest with newfound awe, his shoulders squaring as if he could feel the residual heat of that ancient cosmic fire. "To think that such a weapon rests within our walls," he mused. "It is not just a relic of Mithila, it is a weight upon our souls. It is a terrifying grace, Brother. To hold it is to hold the potential for the end of time itself."


Janaka nodded solemnly. "Indeed. We do not own the Pinaka, Kushadhvaja. We merely serve it. It stays here, unstrung and silent, as a reminder that the power to destroy is only righteous when it is used to preserve the Dharma. As you return to Samkasya, remember this, a King’s greatest strength is not the size of his army, but the alignment of his will with the Divine."


The two brothers stood in silence for a long time, the weight of the Pinaka anchoring them to their duty, while outside, the stars began to appear, the same stars that had once witnessed the fall of the three cities.



The Wielder of the Bow: A Discourse with Sage Yajnavalkya

The grand assembly hall of Mithila was a sea of saffron robes and intellectual fervor. Sunlight filtered through high, arched windows, illuminating the dust motes that danced like tiny stars in the wake of the sages’ debates. At the center of this gathering sat the venerable Yajnavalkya, a man whose presence was so commanding that his wisdom was often compared to the midday sun, blinding to the ignorant, yet life-giving to the seeker.


The Sage Yajnavalkya at the Court of King Janaka
[Image sourced from Gemini AI]



They had been discussing the nature of Brahman, the formless reality that underpins all existence. However, in the court of a Rajarsi (Royal Sage) like Janaka, philosophy was never detached from the tangible symbols of divinity. The conversation eventually drifted toward the heavy, iron-bound presence that resided in the palace’s inner sanctum: the celestial bow, Pinaka.


"O King," Yajnavalkya spoke, his voice deep and resonating like the strike of a temple bell through the hall, "you are a guardian of the Pinaka. This is no small burden, nor a mere royal duty. Many call the Great Lord by many names, Mahadeva, Shankara, Nilakantha, but why, in your estimation, is the title Pinakapani so central to our meditations on Him? Why must the Infinite be envisioned as holding a weapon?"


Janaka, known as Siradhvaja, rose slightly and bowed his head in profound respect toward the sage before answering. He paused, looking out toward the horizon where the Himalayas met the sky, as if drawing inspiration from the heights.


"Venerable Sage," Janaka began, his voice steady and infused with the clarity of a realized soul, "'Pinakapani' literally translates to 'the one who holds the Pinaka in his hand.' But the meaning goes deeper into the philosophy of governance and cosmic law. To hold the Pinaka is to hold the ultimate power of destruction, not as an act of malice, but as an act of Dharma. In the celestial realms, a weapon is not a tool of aggression, it is a boundary. It is the line drawn between the chaotic and the cosmic."


He stepped down from his dais, walking slowly among the gathered scholars. "A king holds a scepter to signify earthly justice; a scholar holds a manuscript to represent the transmission of truth. But the Lord holds the Pinaka. It signifies that the Supreme Consciousness is always 'armed' with the intent to dissolve the ego and the illusions of the material world. When we meditate on Shiva as Pinakapani, we are acknowledging that the same hand that creates the rhythm of the universe is the hand that can end it in a single moment of precision."


Janaka’s eyes grew bright with a surreal intensity as he delved into the Puranic significance of the bow's form. "Consider the physics of a bow, O Sage. It is a state of constant, potential tension. It is not like a sword that lies dormant in a scabbard. A bow, even when unstrung, represents the readiness of the Divine to act. The bow is the bridge between His silent meditation, His Shanti, and His active role as the protector of the cosmic order, His Shakti. It is said that the vibrations of the Pinaka’s string, the Pinaka-ghosha, are the precursors to the Pralaya, the great dissolution. To meditate on Pinakapani is to meditate on the balance of the universe: the stillness of the archer and the terrifying speed of the arrow."


The hall was silent. Even the wind seemed to hold its breath. Janaka continued, his tone shifting to the personal responsibility he felt as the bow’s custodian.


"In Mithila, we do not just worship a weapon, we worship the hand, the Pani, that has the strength to carry the weight of the world. The 'Pani' represents the agency of God. It tells us that the Divine is not an indifferent observer of our struggles. By holding the Pinaka, Mahadeva signals that He is the ultimate arbiter of fate. For us, the Janakas, having the Pinaka in our palace is a constant reminder of the Dharma-danda, the rod of punishment and justice. It reminds us that power is only divine when it is held with the same detachment and discipline that the Lord exhibits when He wields the Pinaka."


Janaka leaned forward, his voice dropping to a confidential whisper that reached every corner of the room. "There is a celestial nuance to this, Yajnavalkya. It is said that when Mahadeva took the form of the hunter to test Arjuna, or when He stood against Tripura, the Pinaka did not just shoot arrows of metal. It shot arrows of pure Tejas, concentrated light. To be the 'Wielder of Pinaka' is to be the source of that light which shatters the darkness of Avidya (ignorance). The bow is curved like the vault of the heavens, and the string is the straight line of truth. When they meet, the ego is pierced."


He concluded, his hands folded in a gesture of surrender, "I guard the metal and the wood, but I meditate on the Hand. I guard the physical chest, but I seek the grace of the One who knows exactly when to draw the string and when to let the world rest in peace."


Yajnavalkya’s face broke into a radiant smile, his eyes twinkling with the satisfaction of a master who finds a student truly aligned with the essence of the Veda. He raised a hand in blessing.


"True, O King," the sage replied. "Your understanding is as vast as the kingdom you rule. You have seen past the iron of the chest to the iron of the soul. The bow is indeed the silent witness to the Lord's readiness. It is the symbol of the Ishvara who is both the peaceful witness and the active destroyer of sorrow. Mithila is safe not because of the bow's weight, but because its King understands the weight of the Hand that holds it."


The assembly erupted in a low murmur of appreciation. Janaka’s discourse had transformed the Pinaka from a relic of war into a beacon of spiritual liberation, cementing the palace of Mithila not just as a seat of power, but as a sanctuary of the highest Truth.


(c) Bharat Bhushan
28 December 2025

Sagara, the son of Bahuka and the father of Asamanjas : Ancient legends of the 'descent of Ganga'

Sagara, the one who was born with poison, is a king of the Suryavanshi Ikshvaku dynasty of Ayodhya. He was the son of Bahuka (or Bathuka or Subahi) and Yadavi. He had two wives, Sumathi or Vaidarbhi, and Keshini or Saibya, and 60,001 sons. Bahuka was the son of Vrika, the king of Ayodhya.

Sagara was born at the ashrama of Sage Aurva, while Bahuka and Yadavi were seeking refuge in the ashrama from the attacks of Talajangha, the king of Hehaya. The Talajanghas and the Hehayas had been invading Ayodhya from their southern kingdom of Mahishmati on the Narmada. 

While at the ashrama, Yadavi, who was in the seventh month of her pregnancy, her co-wife (name?) made her drink a poison, due to which she remained pregnant for seven years. Bahuka died in the hermitage of old age, unable to reconquer Ayodhya, and Yadavi was ready to follow him in his funeral pyre. She was prevented by Aurva, who promised her that her child would grow up to become a great and fortunate emperor. 

Aurva knew of all events, of the past, present and those to come, and declared that Yadavi’s action would be unrighteous, for a valiant prince, he who would be the emperor of many lands, and would offer many great yajnas or sacrifices, would destroy all his enemies, was in her womb. He asked her to be patient to allow the impact of the poison to wash over. 

Yadavi delivered her son after seven years. Since the poison (gara) given to Yadavi by her co-wife and slowed down her pregnancy, Aurva named her son as Sagara, (Sa - with, gara - poison). 

Sage Aurva adopted Sagara and conducted his upanayana ceremony and had him study the vedas and the rituals of the yajna’s sacrificial fire. Sagara began to address Sage Aurva as ‘father’. Yadavi could not accept it and wept in silence. Sagara witnessed her sorrow one day and enquired about the reason. Yadavi told him about his real father and heritage. She explained to him that his duty was to win back his birthright and the kingdom of Ayodhya. Sagara vowed that he would return to Ayodhya and defeat the Talajanghas and the Hehayas. Later, upon consolidation of his control over the kingdom, he would invade Mahishmati and destroy the Hehayas. 

Meanwhile, the people of Ayodhya sought the guidance of Brahmarshi Vashishta who informed them about Sagara, who was at the ashrama of Sage Aurva. He instructed them to travel to the Himalayas and bring back Sagara to face Talajangha who had become a terror. The people arrived at the ashrama of Sage Aurva and waited outside the gates for five days. Upon coming to know that the people wanted Sagara to return, Sage Aurva blessed him and allowed him to leave the ashrama. 

Upon arrival at Ayodhya, Sagara fought Talajangha and conquered the kingdom and ruled as King. He put the Hehayas to their death and decided to fight the Sakas, the Yavanas, Kambojas, Paradas and Pahnavas. These kingdoms, their kings and people came to meet Brahmarshi Vashishta, the family priest of the Ikshvaku lineage. Since these kingdoms had been defeated and made to pay tribute to Ayodhya, Vashishta convinced Sagara to avoid battles. He assured him that these tribes would be part of the kingdom of Ayodhya and provide their tithe. 

Sagara proceeded to place distinguishing marks upon the various tribes. The Yavanas were required to shave their heads entirely, the Sakas were to shave the upper half of their heads, the Paradas were allowed to wear their hair long, and the Pahnavas were required to let their beards grow. 

He forbade these tribes and other Kshatriyas to offer the higher levels of yajna or conduct rituals of sacrificial fire and separated them from their religious rites. Thus, these different tribes came to be recognised together as Mlechchhas. 

Sagara had two wives, Sumati, the daughter of Kasyapa, and Keshini, the daughter of the king of Vidarbha. 

For several years, Sagara was childless. Therefore, the king, with his two wives, went to the Bhruprasravana mountains in the Himalayas and began to perform tapas. Subsequently, in answer to his prayers, the Sage Bhrigu appeared and blessed Sagara that one of his wives would give birth to 60,000 sons while the other would have only one son, he who would add to the glory of the kingdom and the dynasty. Sumati decided to bear the 60,000 sons while Keshini decided to bear the one single son. The sons of Sumati were predicted to be unrighteous while the son of Keshini would be noble and righteous. 

Upon their return to Ayodhya, Keshini gave birth to the noble son, Asamanjasa, while Sumati gave birth to a lump of flesh that was split into 60,000 infants after being cut into thousands of effulgent pieces by Shiva. 

Now that the dynasty was protected, Sagara, accompanied by his 60,001 sons, began a war of conquest. They conquered the northern kingdoms and later moved south, with his focus on fighting the kingdom of Mahishmati, the kingdom of the Hehayas. Sagara was victorious in the battle and he destroyed the Hehayas in their kingdom. 

Asamanjas was unruly in his conduct and unbecoming of a future king of Ayodhya. His 60,000 brothers also copied his behaviour. Sagara was upset with them and was worried about the future of the kingdom. The actions of the 60,001 sons of Sagara began to cause concern to the gods who went to seek guidance from the sage Kapila. The sage was thought to be a portion of Vishnu himself, and free from fault and the bearer of all true wisdom. The gods sought the intervention of sage Kapila, since he was Vishnu, in a visible form, and would be able to protect the people of the kingdom. The sage Kapila asked the gods to stop worrying, for, as he said, the evil deeds of the 60,001 sons would overtake them and they would all be destroyed. 

Having defeated the Hehayas, Sagara decided to perform the Ashwamedha yajna to announce his conquest of the lands known to him. Indra, the king of the devas was worried about the yajna and decided to steal the sacrificial horse. He led the horse to a mountain entrance and left it at Patala, the underworld, near the sage Kapila, who was resident there, in deep meditation. 

On receiving news that the horse had gone missing, Sagara asked his 60,000 sons, collectively known as the Sagarputras (i.e. sons of Sagara) and Asamanjasa to search for the horse and to retrieve it for the yajna. The sons went out in search, tracing the horse by its trail, and eventually came to the chasm in the mountain, proceeded to enlarge it and dug downwards for more than several leagues and entered the premises. They circled the Ashtadiggajas and found the horse grazing near the sage. 

They declared that the sage Kapila was the villain who would have interrupted the Ashwamedha Yajna and the sacrifice. They shouted aloud that the sage should be killed. Their noise and movement disturbed the sage Kapila, who opened his eyes in anger and glared at them, instantly burning the Sagarputras and Asamanjasa to ashes. 

Anushuman, or Ansumat, the son of Asamanjasa, followed the Sagarputras and came up to sage Kapila in a humble manner and requested his intervention to bring his brothers back to life or to free their souls from Patala. The sage informed that he would not be able to bring them back to life but instructed that if the goddess Ganga could be convinced to journey from the heavens to the earth and flow through Patala, the kingdom could perform the funeral rites of the 60,000 who perished. It would require great effort and determination, sage Kapila instructed, for it would only be Anshuman’s grandson who would be able to bring down the celestial river to the earth. It would only be through the flow of the river’s waters in the Patala that the bones and ashes of the 60,001 sons of Sagara would free their souls to reach Svarga, the heavens. 

For, it is the Ganga that flows from the toe of Vishnu, that it confers heaven upon all who bathe in it or even become accidentally immersed in it. Thanking the sage, Anshuman returned with the horse and handed it over to Sagara who was able to complete the sacrifice. 

Sagara, upon hearing of the matter, abdicated the throne of Ayodhya, placed Anshuman as king, and retired to the ashrama of the sage Aurva in the Himalayas and started a penance to request Ganga to descend to earth.


Drawn from various internet sources. Rewritten for commonplace reading.
There are various other versions of these ancient legends and related ones leading up to others. The Jaina literature of the Ikshvaku kings have different names and lineages. The text is available at other web pages. Bharat Bhushan 17 June 2024

References to Sage Kapila, Sage Aurva, Anshuman, Bahuka, Talajangha and Vashishta will be posted later.

Arunachala Shiva!!! We travel distances to return, to you...

"Arunachala!" He called out, "Why do I need to travel, if I am to return to you?"

Muniswamy heard the sadhu call out in prayer at the Esanya Lingam temple. He was almost at the end of the Girivalam path, having walked his way on the fifteen kilometer pradakshana around the sacred Arunachala. After offering his homage at the Esanya Lingam temple, he could complete the walk with prayers at the Annamalai temple. He had been here, on the Girivalam path on a number of occasions in his 65 years, and had been able to complete the entire pradakshana without any problems. He had had no troubles for today, having started from the big temple as early as 5 a.m., and walking slowly he had made it to the Esanya Lingam temple by 9 a.m., before it would get too hot and sultry.

Having come on a number of occasions earlier, he knew of the burial grounds and the cemetery that you had to cross before arriving at the Esanya Lingam temple. Very soon, they were near the cremation grounds. He would have to walk for more than 800 meters at least, bordering the burial grounds. There were two bodies on the pyre, and the smoke was coming their way. It would be better to sit outside, awhile, and go inside the temple only after some time, he felt. Where could he sit? There was a stone-ledge alongside the burial ground, and the families who had come to cremate their loved ones, were gathered nearby. Two local vendors were standing nearby selling flower garlands. He could sit near them.

The flower vendors looked at him curiously. They were not able to place him, as a devotee, or pilgrim or as a member of the families who had gathered here for their loved ones. Muniswamy sat quietly, thinking, watching and wondering. His brother at Chennai had explained about the guardians of the eight directions. He had told him that if you would start at the Indra Lingam, then you would come to a logical end at the cremation grounds near the Esanya Lingam temple. What begins, has to end. If you began on a journey, you had to end it at some point. After you concluded your journey at the Esanya Lingam temple, you walked through the cremation grounds, cleansing yourself of all your actions in this life. You would then go ahead to surrender completely to Annamalai at the big temple. On each occasion that you would enter the great temple after a pradakshana on the Girivalam path, you came out without any baggage from your previous journey.

Muniswamy sat on the edge of the cremation grounds, between the Esanya Lingam temple and the funeral pyres. He watched the families standing near the pyres, and thought, to each one present, they would all return here, one last time. This place was their real destination. Smiling at the truth, Muniswamy went to the Esanya Lingam  temple. This was the only one of the ashtalingams that was placed lower in the ground, almost underground. One had to descend a small flight of stairs to reach the Esanya Lingam. This was also supposed to be the largest and the most ancient. The priest was conducting prayers for some families who had come earlier and Muniswamy did not disturb him. He offered his prayers to Shiva who was Esanya himself at this place, and came up to the outer sanctum and sat outside the premises.

The images were extremely overwhelming. He had seen some pilgrims breaking down in tears at the Esanya Lingam temple. Today was not to be one of those days, he thought. His mind went back to some of his earlier visits on completion of the Girivalam pradakshana. Once, there had been an oldish gentleman who had been quoting the sacred Annamalai Venba and had explained some of the verses to him. It had left a profound impact on him. He kept hearing the verses again and again inside his head. He had not understood any of the words at that time, and he did not do so, to this day. He could not even remember the words. But, he could certainly sense the references to Esanya and to the cycle of life and death.

An elderly lady, silver-haired, dressed in a much wrinkled, well-worn saree, with a very largish circular crimson red kumkum bindi, came walking leisurely and sat next to Muniswamy. He greeted her respectfully, as one pilgrim to another, and sat quietly. He did not want to end up talking to her about anything, for he dearly wanted to get back to the big temple and conclude his Girivalam walk with prayers to Annamalai. He looked up at Annamalai and gestured to himself, almost in gratitude. The elderly lady watched his gesture and smiled.

As he feared, she began to speak, "Swamy, you seem to have been here on a number of occasions. Do you come here often? Do you sit here often?" Muniswamy hated when it happened in such a manner. He hated to talk to people when he could be better placed by walking on the Girivalam path. However, he replied, "I have to get back on the pradakshana. But yes, I do come here often. I usually sit here for sometime before going forward to the big temple. Why do you ask?"

She did not reply. She was watching a new family enter the cremation grounds. It was a very small group. Four men carried an old lady and placed the body near an empty pyre-site. The moment they placed the body, they stood away from it and walked away to stand under the shade of a large tree at a distance. Two women had accompanied then, and they stood near the compound wall of the cremation grounds. They did not enter the grounds. They just waited in the shade of another tree. Soon enough, an elderly gentleman came running behind them, with a young boy accompanying him. They stood near the two women. They were all silent. They did not go near the old lady's body that had been placed on the ground. This went on for a while, as Muniswamy watched quietly.

The elderly lady smiled and pointed and said, "O Swamy! Do you see that! They are all alone. Now, perhaps, they understand. As a family, they are all alone at this moment. A member of their family has passed away, and they have just about done their duty. Both those women are sisters, and that elderly man is their brother. They are standing there silently, waiting. Do you know, O Swamy, what is it that they are waiting for? They are waiting for people to come to help them to untie the lady and place her on the funeral pyre. Do you know why they are waiting? Because their caste does not permit them to go near the funeral pyre or to touch the dead body when it is inside the cremation ground. That is why the four who brought the old lady here, placed her on the ground and rushed away. Little do they realise, that they will also come here on their final journey and this is their fate. Yet, they cling on to their caste and pride."

Muniswamy looked at the people and agreed with her. The brother and the two sisters seemed to be waiting for some help to come along. There were similar help at one of the other pyres. They were placing the firewood and dung cakes on the body over there. It looked like it would be well over an hour before they would move over from their task to help out with the old lady who had been placed next to an empty pyre-site. He spoke to the elderly lady, "Who are those two sisters? Are they related to the old lady? Do you know them?"

"Yes! They are related!" exclaimed the elderly lady, "That old lady is my elder sister and those two ladies are her daughters and that elderly man is her son. She had passed away in here sleep and they rushed her here within two hours. They did not inform me, though I am her only sister. They fear that I will claim a share in her property. They did not even bother to take her to a good hospital to see if they could revive her. The medical doctor who gave them the death certificate in ten minutes, remembered me and informed me. That's why I have come here and I sit here."

It was too bad and depressing, thought Muniswamy. This was very unwise. When would people learn? She was their mother, and they made her wait, thus, in her final journey! He sat next to the elderly lady. The final part of the walk on the Girivalam path could wait, he thought. This lady needed his companionship now. She looked so courageous, but could lose control at any moment. They sat together, watching. It was almost high noon now, and the men from the other funeral had completed their tasks. They received some money from the family and came up to the body of the old lady. There was no conversation or instructions. They went about their job silently and without any discussion from the family.

The sisters and brother left the cremation ground by the time the pyre was burning fiercely. They would probably return tomorrow, Muniswamy thought. Or, if there were more bodies coming in, the pyre-helpers would sweep up the bones and ashes and retain them in a mud urn and hand them over to the family if and when someone would come to claim it. The elderly lady stood up as the family left the ground and took Muniswamy's hand for support. He walked with her silently to the funeral pyre and stood while she wept and circled around the burning pyre. She called out to a cremation priest sitting nearly and gave him some money to recite prayers. The sisters and brother had not conducted any prayers for their mother. Muniswamy stood, listening to the prayers, watching, his eyes lost in the leaping flames.

The flames made him weep. He was standing too close. He thought of his father and mother. He had done good by them. He had been able to carry them to their cremation, along with his brother, and his uncles. They had had no second thoughts about bathing them by themselves, dressing them up and conducting all the rites with the help of a regular cremation ground priest. His uncle had been close to his father. He had sat at the cremation grounds at their village near Satyavedu in Andhra Pradesh, holding on the ash-urn for eleven days, without returning home. They had gone to the cremation grounds to ask him to return, but he had refused. some said that his uncle had been talking strangely during those days.

Death was strange, funny and abrupt, thought Muniswamy. The only definite aspect of it was that it was final. It was complete. It got over and there was no way that you could change it. You had to accept it. Perhaps, those two sisters and the brother were more pragmatic. They had come to terms with the passing of their mother immediately. He stood quietly, as the elderly lady completed her prayers. She sat down in the shade of a tree nearby and said, "O Swamy, thank you for your help. I am ok now. I will sit here till the flames go down. You go ahead on the Girivalam and complete your walk. Later, if you feel good about it, please bring me some flower garlands from Annamalai himself so that I can offer them to my sister here, at the Esanya Lingam."

Nodding in agreement, Muniswamy bowed low with folded hands and went back to the Esanya Lingam temple. There was a water tap nearby. He removed all his clothes, right down to his loincloth, and had a quick bath in the cold water. Without drying himself, and with only a dhoti around his waist, he walked in to the outer sanctum. Nobody thought his appearance to be strange. He worshipped at the Esanya Lingam and sat on the stairs, at the last step. The priest had closed the doors to the inner sanctum. Muniswamy could sit silently, contemplating the aspect of Shiva as Esanya. What was this circle of life, he wondered, and why enforce the aspect so vigorously at this temple?

Muniswamy felt his question, being asked directly to Shiva. What could Maheshwara reply to the most profound of questions of humanity, he thought. Why should we be reminded of death when it is futile, for we cannot prevent death? Death was certain. Should one think about it or should one fear death? Is it just a moment in one's life like any other? If so, then one would have to remember that there would be nothing after death. The death of a loved person led to sorrow, but the death of a person in pain and sorrow should mean liberation. Would they take their pain and sorrow with them in their onward journey? Or, was one free of their misery? If one would get free from one's misery, then perhaps, one should look forward to death.

"Questions, questions, O Maheshwara! Who would give me answers?" thought Muniswamy, looking at the peaceful image of Shiva as Esanya. These were questions that nobody could answer, he knew. A family of pilgrims, having come from their walk on the Girivalam, came in to worship at the closed doors of the inner sanctum. There seemed to be three generations, grandparents, parents and a grandson and grand-daughter. The grandson was helping his grandmother down the stairs while the grandfather preferred to sit and crouch on the top step to get a glimpse of the Esanya Lingam. The grand-daughter sat alongside her grandfather. The parents came to sit alongside Muniswamy at the lowest step. Silently, they went about organizing the items for the prayer that they conducted  themselves without waiting for the priest.

The grandmother watched everything patiently and turned to her grandson and said, "Muruga, you are a good boy unlike your father who is now lost in rituals. He has walked on the Girivalam path with me and his father on so many occasions but has yet to understand the ONE with no form. What prayer can you render to the ONE who is beyond everything? With which ritual can you bind HIM, who is impossible to contain? Your father will also die as surely I would. Muruga, ask your father to lead his remaining days in being a good teacher to you and your sister."

Muniswamy was amazed. He had asked a single question to Shiva as Esanya and had wondered if he would get an answer. Immediately, here was this lady, who explained that even such questions and rituals were only mundane in our surrender to the great ONE without form. Perhaps, he could be selfish and ask his questions, maybe one question, just one question, to the grandmother. And maybe he would get his answer.

Taking courage, with a silent prayer to Shiva as Esanya, he asked, "Amma, I heard you speak the truth to your grandson. I am sitting here in front of Esanyan, and I had asked him a question. Perhaps, you could help me with the answer. Here, at this ashtalingam, why should we be reminded of death, if death was certain, and we need not fear it. Is it not an actual liberation of our soul, and should we not look forward to it? Pray, help me with this answer, for it may benefit this boy and his parents also."

The grandmother smiled with true happiness, and without any surprise, replied, "Thambi, I see that your clothes and your feet are wet. No wonder you ask these questions as you sit here. You must have come from the cremation grounds and your mind is troubled about death. You sit here, without being able to get your feet to take you to the big temple, to complete your pradakshana. There are lines on your palms, and even palmists can predict your life. So, why worry about death? Just go to a palmist. There are people you meet, who are not related to you, and they go to their homes after work. You lose them for some part of the day. But, they come back. You board a bus to go to Chennai. You do not get the same driver. Yet, in both cases, your friend at work comes back to you and you do your work as usual. Your bus driver is not the same, but you go where you wanted and you arrived correctly."

"So, what is important? The journey or the destination?" She asked, "Your relatives or your friends? Your work that got done or the work that you could not do? Nothing matters. Bhakti and faith are also not real. Accept your tasks, go on completing them. Accept your successes. Go on with your work. Accept your faults. Begin a new journey. Death is certain. That much is certain. Do not go about seeking answers to the riddle of death. It is there. That's all. Seeking death is of no purpose. Not seeking work or your responsibilities is not going to help you avoid death."

Muniswamy stood up happy. He was not certain that he understood it entirely and that he now knew what to do about death or life. He was extremely happy, that he had just sat here, asked questions to Esanyan himself, at his sanctum, and a person came to give him some answers. You had to ask and you had to push. "O Arunachala!" He exclaimed, turning to the grandmother, "Your ways are not at all mysterious. I have seen you and I now know that you hear everyone in this magical path. Give me strength, for I would now run to complete this journey, for I know that you will bless me with new life and a new journey, that will bring me back, to you..."

Shiva, in the aspect of Maha Mrityunjaya
the conqueror of death... 


Arunachala Shiva!!! Bless me, that I will always return, to you...

"Arunachala!" he whispered, "What is this amazing family of the night that you create!"

Rangabhashyam sat at the open seat-ledge outside the Kubera Lingam temple. It was a Girivalam full-moon night, around 2 a.m., and he sat amazed, watching the nearly hundred devotees and pilgrims walking, sitting, worshipping, chanting, sleeping and eating about near the temple. The Kubera Lingam temple was amazingly comfortable and perhaps, thoughtfully improved, this year in 1975, he thought. Pilgrims starting on the Girivalam walk from the Annamalai temple or Sri Ramashram would be happy to take a break by the time they would reach the Kubera Lingam temple. There were open spaces alongside the temple, and the pavement was ample here, with some improved amenities in the mid 70s. Devotees, pilgrims, vendors, sadhus, mendicants and local volunteers, everyone found a place near the temple on the Girivalam full-moon night.

He had started walking at 11.30 p.m., and it had been slow progress, walking with the groups of devotees along the path. There must have been at least a thousand or more pilgrims walking on the Girivalam path tonight. Somehow, slowly, resting when possible, Rangabhashyam had managed to get up to the Kubera Lingam temple. the devotees had queued up outside the temple and there were clusters of devotees standing around the outer sanctum. Some devotees were throwing coins towards the temple, as was the unusual or usual practice at the Kubera Lingam. There were also groups of 3-4 sadhus and mendicants seated in a disciplined manner on the pavement seeking alms from the devotees. Vendors were selling foodstuffs, devotional items and memorabilia.

Rangabhashyam loved this experience. He had been on the Girivalam path, years ago, with his parents, when they had traveled up from Srivilliputtur with his two sisters. They had stayed at a choultry, cooking their own food, traveling meagrely, and enjoying every aspect of the pilgrimage. He had many memories of that visit. His father had been very enterprising and loved to travel. They had traveled all over Tamil Nadu, Kerala and as far north as Ahobilam and Tirupati. Those were the years between 1910 to 1925, and these places were not even named as such. Later, he had made one more pilgrimage to Tiruvannamalai, after his marriage, with Kodai, his wife, and  three of his children, journeying from Srirangam, where they had migrated to, from Srivilliputtur. From one pilgrimage center to the other, he thought, a Vaishnava in search of Shiva!!!

Those were the only two pilgrimages to the Girivalam path, as he remembered. His father had been traveling all the while and later he had moved away from Tamil Nadu. Memories, he thought, memories were a treasure. Walking on the Girivalam path in those days, with his parents had been a true adventure. The road as one saw it today was not there. It was a network of cart-tracks inside thick forests and scrublands and one had to walk from one of the ashtalingams to the other. Each of the ashtalingams were in the custody of a resident sadhu who had settled at the premises. Beyond the 2-3 other helper sadhus in those days, ten pilgrims were considered a crowd. Years later, when he had come with his wife and kids, they had hired a local couple from near the Agni Lingam temple. The man had carried their bags and the woman had helped them cook food and took care of the children. It had been difficult, he remembered, thinking of those days.

Today, it would be his third pilgrimage, he thought. The road was much better, with comfortable walking tracks, volunteers providing food and water, eating-stalls, quick prayers at the ashtalingams, and the sight of thousand pilgrims being recognised as not being enough. Rangabhashyam sat at the Kubera Lingam, thinking of all those who had gone ahead, of those who he would not meet again. And yet, he thought, as he sat there, he could almost reach out and talk to his father and mother. In spite of his marriage of many years, his children having grown up and with their own families, for Rangabhashyam, the most precious and most treasured memories were the years that he had been blessed with his parents. If given a chance, he would give away everything that he had gained to be back with his parents. That would not be, he thought, but being on the Girivalam path, brought everything back, flooding in.

There was a significant memory of his visit with his parents to the Kubera Lingam temple, sometime in 1910 or thereabouts. He had been 10-11 years of age, and his mother had been tired and she worried about the night journey with the girls. They had been advised by the priest at the Kubera Lingam temple to stay at a nearby hut across the cart-tracks towards the sacred peak of Arunachala. A mendicant sadhu covered in a blanket, had gone ahead and informed the family staying there. His father had paid four annas for the night, and had given a half-anna to the sadhu who had helped. The family was very unique, and that was why he had remembered them, after all these years. The man was a dwarf, and his wife had been incredibly tall, compared to him. Rangabhashyam's parents had not thought it to be amusing but he had never forgotten them.

The dwarf, tiny as he was, had been extremely fat, with a big belly. He had had a golden necklace and walked about with the support of a stout staff. He had been very kind and had asked his wife to warm up goat milk with jaggery for the two girls. One of his sisters had disliked it intensely and had passed on the clay container to Rangabhashyam. He had thought it to be very tasty. Today, sitting here, at the Kubera Lingam temple, he thought, what would he give, perhaps a month's salary, to get that hot cup of goat milk sweetened with jaggery. His mother and the dwarf's wife had been chatting all the while, and worked out the dinner together and Rangabhashyam could remember the snip of the tasty coconut-oil flavoured sambar to this day. Those days were gone, forever.

In his second visit with Kodai and his children, Rangabhashyam had delayed the pradakshana at the Kubera Lingam temple. Would he find the dwarf? Would that house be there? He had wondered about it and had keenly crossed the earlier ashtalingams quickly. Kodai had not known about his intent. It was sometime in 1929 or 1930, he remembered, two sons and a daughter had accompanied them, and Kodai was keen to seek the blessings of Arunachala after tragedy had taken away a child earlier. Rangabhashyam had asked the priest at the Kubera Lingam if he knew of a family across the road towards the sacred peak of Arunachala, of whom, the husband was a dwarf, and who had kept goats for their milk.

The priest had explained that he was new to the temple and he went back daily, by dusk, to a village near the panchamukham area. He had never crossed the road to explore the settlements in the lower slopes of the sacred Arunachala. They were all newcomers in any case, and there were only 6-10 houses in the area. Rangabhashyam had asked the local mendicants and sadhus who were camping at a small prehistoric type of ancient stone temple-structure nearby. None of the sadhus had helped him. But, Rangabhashyam had been keen, and had gone to a nearby hut and requested their help for his family to stay the night. They had allowed them, but they did not speak of a dwarf, his tall wife and his goats.

Now, in 1975, and in his third visit, Rangabhashyam was alone. They had all gone earlier, parents, sisters, Kodai - his beloved wife, and five of his children, had all journeyed before him to the great temple in the heavens. He had come down from Bombay, where his two sons had settled, to visit his daughter in Madras. With time to spare, he had got away by a bus and got a bed to sleep at the Gentlemen's Choultry at Sri Ramanashram. It had been pure bliss, getting away, finally. He could not remember when he had been entirely alone, by himself. Walking on the Girivalam path, all the memories came flooding back. He had actually sat down at the Yama Lingam and Niruthi Lingam temples and had broken down in tears.

Sitting here, he could sense his mother holding his hand, and sometimes he could remember the feel of his sisters' hands in his, holding on to him for support. He could close his eyes and feel the loving hands of Kodai, seeking his strength, and later asking him to carry their three year old son over the stony path. The roads were well made now, tarred, with buses and cars driving by, and night lighting at some spots providing the welcome feeling. Pilgrims no longer cooked their food on the Girivalam path, out of absolute necessity. Eatables were available easily. He had taken a break at a 'tiffin kadai', actually a simple shanty made of palm leaves. They had served him a medley of two idlis, one masala vada, two types of chutneys and a small container of buttermilk - all for one rupee. He had almost laughed at the cost. It would have been at least two rupees in Bombay.

Rangabhashyam walked about, within and around the outer sanctum of the Kubera Lingam temple. Whom could he ask about the family he had met, nearly sixty years ago? Who would know? Turning towards Arunachala, he looked up at the sacred peak, in sharp silhouette under the full moon. It would not do any harm, he thought, and he spoke to Arunachala, within himself. "O Shiva! O Arunachala! My father taught me that you are the first Vaishnava. As you did, so did my beloved Kodai. She carried the Shankhu and the Chakram on her bare shoulders, and yet, she loved you dearly. Who was it that allowed my parents and sisters to stay the night, so close to you? Who was it that allowed you to love my parents, sisters, my Kodai and my children so much, that you have taken them in your embrace?"

As he said these thoughts, he saw a sadhu, aged, walking towards him, distinctively covered entirely by a blanket around him. There was something in his confident walk, the way he walked proudly, the repeated glance towards Arunachala, the steadfast denial to look down, and in his strong shoulders. Rangabhashyam extended his hands towards him and placed a five rupee note in the sadhu's palms. The sadhu looked startled. People rarely gave more than fifty paise and the rich would sometimes give a rupee. But, five rupees? This was surprising. He looked at Rangabhashyam enviously, and blessed him, "Swami, may Arunachala bless you!"

Hearing his voice, Rangabhashyam was sure. This was the same sadhu who had guided his parents to the dwarf's house. His father had given him a half-anna for his help. Smiling, Rangabhashyam said to him, "Periyanna, this is my resolution to a very old debt. Sixty years ago, you had helped my parents and my sisters stay for the night at a kind family's house for the night. My father had given a half-anna for your help. Do you remember? How can you remember? You meet so many pilgrims every day on his sacred path. Perhaps you can help me. Do you remember the family who had alowed us to stay at their home for the night? The man was a dwarf. Is the family alive?"

The mendicant sadhu smiled. He looked closely at Rangabhashyam and asked him to sit with him at the stone ledge outside the Kubera Lingam temple. He said, "You are that small boy, about ten years old, I remember, on that day. That dwarf, as you say, is my stepbrother. He could never stop talking about your family. He stayed in touch with your father, and they met each other once or twice at Tiruvannamalai. Yes. He is alive, older than me, of course, but very much present. His wife is also alive. They had moved their house to a secluded place inside the forest."

Rangabhashyam was happy. He looked up at Arunachala, conveyed a quiet prayer of thanks and spoke to the mendicant sadhu who was covered up with his blanket, "Periyanna, I never knew that you were related to the family we stayed with. Who was he? Why is his memory so strong in me? Why do I feel like I have to know about him? I had come here, when I was married, with my wife and children, sometime 45 years ago. But nobody knew about him. They never knew that there was a dwarf and his wife in the foothills of the sacred Arunachala in front of the Kubera Lingam temple."

The mendicant sadhu replied, "That is the tragedy now. The newcomers do not know of the siddhars who are the real guardians of the sacred region. Some say that they have been for hundreds of years. As much as you can remember, and as I can, all changes have taken place in these hundred years, and as I feel, for the better. My brother seeks solitude and has very minimal needs. He is happy to be with Arunachala. Actually, he is a very rich man. Coconut groves, cultivation and dairy farms, away from Arunachala belong to his family. His wife's family and his children manage his properties. He lives as he taught. There are no personal needs in life. He does not need anything. I have been with him since my childhood. Sometime people like you place alms in my hand. I use it for the stuff that I cannot get in a normal way."

Rangabhashyam nodded and asked, "Can I meet him? can I talk to him? He has been a part of my memories that I have not shared at all with my children, grown up as they are, with their children. I have thought of him, every day, in my prayers, in my sleep, in my thoughts about my parents, my sisters and my children who are no longer with me. Is it possible to go to his house and meet him?"

The mendicant sadhu said, "Wait here. Tonight is a full moon. He has to come to the temple. he has not come until now. It would be about time now. After his prayers, he will sit here for some time and watch everyone. He loves to watch the crowds, the devotees, the families and the manner in which the Girivalam path has become accepted among everyone. You wait here. I will join you when he comes."

It was about 4 a.m. or thereabouts, and devotees were moving about in waves. Many dropped coins at the open area outside the Kubera Lingam temple. Some families sat for a while. Several devotees placed coins in the open bowls in front of the sadhus who were seated in groups and chanting some prayers. The mendicant sadhu covered in a blanket stood silently, away from the crowd. He seemed very calm, unaffected by all the hustle and the numbers of people. He did not seem to be in need of alms. He was watching the dark lower slopes of Arunachala. He was waiting. After a while, he seemed to have spotted something. He shouted a prayer loudly and went inside the Kubera Lingam temple and took up a place in the premises in the outer sanctum. 3-4 mendicants came up from other places in the crowd and stood with him.

Rangabhashyam looked towards the lower slopes of Arunachala. He could not see anything. He continued to search. Then, he heard it. A faint bleat of a goat. There was an ancient prehistoric sort of medieval temple structure on the outer side of the road. It was a deserted place and in the darkness of the night, it looked like a haunted place. Suddenly, as he watched, a goat stood there, quiet, watching, waiting. He kept looking at the goat. he was there, he could make out, a small shadow alongside the goat. The dwarf was there.

The goat stood still at the temple-like ancient structure while the dwarf man crossed the Girivalam path from the side of the sacred Arunachala to the Kubera Lingam temple. The groups of mendicant sadhus stopped singing. Some stood up to greet him in silent respect. He did not look like he was ninety years or more, in the manner in which he walked. He strode confidently, covered in a shawl, looking around, smiling and not stopping to talk to anyone. At the entrance to the temple, a group of 3-4 mendicant sadhus bowed in respect and touched his feet. At that moment, Rangabhashyam saw, he did not seem to have changed at all in his rotund shape.

He was fat, with a large belly, but despite it, nobody seemed to be noticing him for his shape at all. he had a golden necklace and was carrying a money bag that he handed over. One of the mendicants accepted the money bag and went over to the groups of waiting sadhus and kept handing over fistfuls of coins to them. As he saw, Rangabhashyam could notice, he now had a full-length silvery beard and a great moustache. Silvery hair that seemed to make him look like a very wise man.

The mendicant sadhu with the blanket walked up to him from the outer sanctum and went with the wise looking dwarft to the temple. He did not push the pilgrims aside and did not break the queue. Quietly, without any showy display, he conveyed his prayer, and walked out to the garden area. He seemed to be carrying some pomegranates in his hand that he handed over to the kids who were picking up the coins being thrown by the devotees. The mendicant sadhu with the blanket spoke to the wise looking dwarf and pointed towards Rangabhashyam. Nodding, the wise looking dwarf came up to him.

"It has been a long time, Son. A very long time." He said, "You are an old man now, with your own grandchildren. Why did you not come earlier?" Rangabhashyam broke down in tears, and bowed down to touch the feet of the wise looking dwarf. The mendicant sadhu with the blanket said, "Anna, he has lost five of his children. They went back to Vaikunta as kids." The wise looking dwarf looked at Rangabhashyam quietly, thinking of all those who had gone, and made him sit on the stone ledge. He said, "I understand. You are in search of your people, you are in search of your memories. I am in search of that family who came to meet me sixty years ago. I remember your mother and your father. I remember your sisters."

"Come, come with me to my hut on the foothills of Arunachala, and stay with me for 2-3 days. My lady will be so happy. She remembers your family. Mind it, you were the only family to stay with us in all these years. The memories of that single day have made them feel like they were our family. We can talk to you about what your father and mother said, and how they loved to take care of you and your sisters. My lady will tell you how much your sisters loved you and how they gossiped. Come. My life has not changed much. My friend, my beloved Arunachala, does not allow me to go back to him, though I ask him to call me to him every day."

Rangabhashyam stood up and walked away obediently with the wise looking dwarf to the foothills of the sacred Arunachala in the hours of the early dawn. this would be his longest Girivalam pradakshana, he thought.

Kubera